Very depressed!

Good day to you all,

I am not being so well today. It is my first day back to work and I am miserable. Just yesterday I was happy and looking forward to returning back. No sure as to what happened. I love what I do. My employees have shown there support In so many ways today. They are happy that I’m back. Why is all of this causing me so much pain?

I really do know what’s going on with me. I feel that I’m of no use to anyone. I know that is not true. I can’t seem to control myself. Medication can only do but so much.

My thoughts are all over the place….

Every Morning should start off like this…

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Good Morning to You All,

Thank you so much for all of your support.  I truly feel that writing this blog and having an audience who cares is very therapeutic to me.  Its not easy to express yourself into words and post for all to see.  Its comforting to know that I am not alone.    

Thank You!

Day at the Doctors / Bad News…

Good Day to You All,

Was not feeling well today.  On top of my mental illness I also have chronic pain in my shoulder.  These past couple of days however it decided to really act up.   Went to the doctor today and was told not to return to work until my orthopedic doctor clears me.   I have an appointment made for Wednesday.  Nothing sooner was available.  Well, I can make the best of this and not stress out.  My youngest son can stay with me at home rather then going to Daycare.  He is something else.  I love him to death.  My eldest sons are at a stage where they really don’t want to hang out with dad.  They rather have there cell phones glued to there faces.  Its so funny to watch them.  

Looking forward to spending time with my family at home.  No choice but to make the best of it.  

Love you all!

I’m very happy to have the strength to Blog Today…

Good Day to You All,

I feel like it has been a long time since I have posted.  Yes it has.  It has almost been a month.  Wow.  That a long time.  Why haven’t I blogged you may ask?  Well, I can’t really explain it.  Hours turns to days, Days turn to weeks very fast.  Time goes by so fast.  My illness is like a roller coaster ride.  It has its ups and downs.  More Down then ups unfortunately.   It seems that everything has been annoying me for no apparent reason.  None what so ever.  I should be thrown into a closet. When I feel this way it just makes everyone who comes in contact with me frustrated.  There is really nothing they can do.  It is me.  I’m the problem.  

I curious to know if anyone else can relate to this?  I really haven’t heard from my followers in a long while.  If you think that I’m talking crazy please just say so in a comment.  I really need your support and help.  Depression Hurts.  It really Hurts!

On top of everything else that is wrong with me, am I also Bipolar?  If so then I’m really messed up.